Where Do I Stand...?

Sometimes I question myself... Am I gay? Am I bi? Or am I another sex? It's these questions that emerge with my Christianity, making me believe I'm not a Christian. Sad to say that, but it's true. I sometimes think I'm not a Christian.

If these thoughts always haunt me... there has to be something wrong. I mean, I am a thirteen-year-old girl confused already, and my life barely even started. Ugh, why must life have so many roads to travel? So many decisions to make? I just want to live a pure life, but frankly, I actually do think I'm gay.

I wonder what my mom would think if she hears this. She's against anything gay related, and I am afraid to disappoint her. I have kissed a girl, in fact, that girl was my first gay crush. She was my bisexual best friend and she was so cute and I was attracted to her. Sadly, I think she only saw me as friends. I also have a current crush on one girl, but she's ... different? I dunno, I just know that my heart races and I can't stop looking at her.

But if I were gay... what would God think?